I want to live,
but I just can't
go on like this.
Good start. You've made two important decisions that many who are in similar circumstances fail to do. You've decided you aren't going to listen to dark counsels urging you to give up and end your life. And you've decided that something has to change.
The problem is, if you knew how to change the situation, you wouldn't still be where you are, right? Life can get so complicated that you feel like you're caught in quicksand... every movement you make to try and free yourself only causes you to sink deeper.
So what is the best way to get out of quicksand? You need someone who isn't in the quicksand to grab your hand or throw you a rope. But you may not have anyone in your life who is willing or able to help you. Let's face it, even if others want to help, to some degree they are in the quicksand also. They may not be in as deep as you, but they've got plenty of issues to deal with on their own, which limits their effectiveness in reaching out to you.
Another reality you have to deal with is that even if you get out, unless changes take place deep within, there's a good chance you're going to fall back in. So you need someone who not only is able to get you out, but is also able to walk beside you every step of the way so you'll stay out.
It would be ideal if this person knew you perfectly... where you've been, who you really are, what your thoughts are, what your true needs are... total knowledge of every aspect of your existence. Obviously he or she would also need to know how to get you from where you are to where you need to be. And it would be great if such services were free of charge, right?
Impossible? Most people think so. And so, unable to help themselves, many will just thrash about in the quicksand until they breathe their last. Others will spend huge sums of money on therapy. Sadly, many who do so end up with little to show for what they've poured into it. They are left with continuing to live in increasing misery, or finally drowning in the quicksand.
There is a better way. It's very expensive, although it won't cost you a dime. The price is in the commitment. The total trust. The complete turning over of your life to the only One who can guarantee a lasting cure for your problems if you will follow the directions.
Don't wait. Reach out today to the One who alone can get you out of the quicksand, and keep you out.